I've never been taught metta, but I've made up my own version, which basically just boils down to 10-20 minutes per day where I do my damndest to be a good friend.
I think everyone must go through trials by fire. The mind eating away at you both consciously and unconsciously. Anger, fear, pain, self hatred. The Dalai Lama said that self hatred does not exist in Tibetan culture. Only after he met with western Buddhists did he learn about the obstacle of self hatred.
A lot of change brings a lot of fear and I'm just trying to stay afloat. I believe I need self love and self care now more than ever, but allowing it seems nearly impossible. Whose permission am I waiting for?
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